Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Post-college life has been really cool. Sometimes I ache for those fun times at asbury, but all-in-all I am very satisfied in paying my own way, working with my hands, and moving along. All that studying started to overwhelm me and bog me down towards the end of last year. Now I feel free and happy and light. It's strange though because I'm not vocationally where I want to be and I'm not making as much money as I'd hoped to, but I have a sense and a peace that I am paving my own way and it's a good feeling. It's the feeling that "I can do it."
And not only that but that God can do it too. Jesus is like woah so awesome. He's like, Lauren trust me because really when have you ever not eaten or slept in a bed or had a roof? In fact, I've always been blessed with way more than that. So anyway, I guess the point is that I'm finally experiencing peace and of you knew any personal details about my life from last year you'd know that's a big deal.
Well, I guess this means I need to start keeping up with this thing again. Maybe I will maybe I won't :)
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Anyway, when I woke up no one was in the house so I had a lot of quiet and was finally able to process the last two weeks. But I really ended up processing the last two months. Lately, especially being here in Spain, it seems like everything in my life is changing or has changed. I'm realizing how comfortable I was in my life. But now my parents are selling the house I grew up in, I'm starting a new job after this, I'm buying a new car, I'm moving into a new apartment in the next few months, I'm separated from my awesome college friends, and I'm starting a whole new chapter. My friends are getting engaged and married. It's so weird. I knew this was coming and I've been really excited for it but now I'm lamenting the comfortable place I've been in since I emerged from the womb. Lol yes emerged from the womb. I guess I could have just said born. Accepting change is rely hard. But I've definitely learned that God is the only constant in your life and that's where I'm putting my faith. Otherwise I'll be a hot mess.
Only ten more days in Spain! Time to capitalize on my time here and look forward to moving on when it's over.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Being in a foreign country is definitely cool. There's so many new and exciting things to see. It's like being reborn. And honestly, I love Spain. The people here are lovely and smart and they dress really well (well a good majority of them anyway). They have beautiful accents and they value family above almost everything else. For being such a big city Sevilla is definitely a community all it's own.
I have to add though that I have never been so out of my element. There literally hasn't been one familiar thing since I walked onto the first plane in Charlotte. So yeah it's been a little uncomfortable, painful even, but really good. I haven't had anyone to rely on but Jesus this whole time and my how he's taught me to trust and receive. And I've learned a lot about myself too. I really am a big girl. I can find my way around a foreign city all by myself. I can speak broken Spanish and achieve exactly what I wanted to. I can make new friends and study hard and pay for stuff and budget my money and be ok. I can reach out to my host family and besides breaking a piece of their dishwasher off, have a fairly good impact on them. I can find my way around airports and train stations and bus stops. Maybe I didn't have enough faith in myself. And maybe to some of you more independent people this all seems really simple but it's things I've never done before. So, all that to say, the loneliness and the challenge have been really good.
Finally, I haven't really had time to post pictures but there's some on Facebook if you're really curious. The problem is that I can't put them on via my iPad and I don't want to drag my computer places. We don't have weefee at my house. But anyway I hope all you lovely people are swell. I'll try to write again soon. Love you all!
Monday, January 24, 2011
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Also, my least favorite thing when I tell people that I don't really like to read is the response "well you just haven't read the right books yet." OH MY GOSH SHUT YOUR MOUTH. It is humanly possible to not enjoy reading. And I'm a stinking senior in college, I've read plenty of so-called "great works." I don't say that to take away from the fact that they are great works, because they really are. I appreciate them very much when I'm done with them, but the process of getting through them is semi-torturous to me. I've also read several great novels that were not related to school and have loved the stories but hated the reading. It's just the way it is.
In one of his skits Jim Gaffigan says, "I hate it when you see a great movie and you tell someone that you loved it and then they say 'oh but the book was sooo much better.' And then I say 'yeah but you had to sit there and read it.'" That's exactly how I feel. You have to SIT THERE. FOR HOURS.
Anyway, the point of the story is that I want to be one of those people, like my roommate Anna Mozely, who eats up novels like a monkey eats up bananas. It'd be great and I'd probably be so much smarter, but what can you do?
Oh well, I guess that's all I had to say about that. ONLY 14 days until Christmas!!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
my hope comes from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
My salvation and my honor depend on God;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge.
One thing God has spoken,
two things have I heard:
that you, O God, are strong,
and that you, O Lord, are loving.