Tuesday, May 5, 2009

I probably shouldn't publish this.

I didn't know why I couldn't just be happy. I'd strive to put on joy like an accessory in the morning. It's not that I didn't want to admit that I was hurt. It's that I just didn't want to be hurt. I would say that I thought that just brushing it off would be the answer... but that's just it, I didn't think. All I wanted was just to be okay and not have to deal with what I was really feeling. It's true, I went from being fine to just being mad. I skipped the whole sad part. That's why I just spent the last 30 minutes crying. Being rejected is being denied the most important of human needs, which is love. Now I know more clearly my need for love and Jesus is welcomed to meet it.


  1. You probably should post more like this. It helps you put Ito words what you are feeling. Then those who read it can ask you and listen.

  2. This is insane. We should talk about it more.